Wacko

So the woman who works for my Grandfather is a complete ASS! Seriously she needs to resign or My mom, aunt and I are going to drive her to quit. she decided that she would take it upon herself to shred some of my GP's bank statements. Why would she do that? Then my mom made a surprise visit today and she said to Becky where are his pills, she told her, "oh I hid them", okay so where are they , she told my mom not to worry about it that she had them put up and it was all under control. She never told her where she hid them. Then she had the nerve to tell my mom, that she doesn't she my GP on a daily basis so she doesn't know what he is like. Oh this woman makes me so mad. My mom left there bawling today. This woman is supposed to just take care of his office not run his life. Why does he still have her there other than he is so lonely? I really think its time to give him an ultimatum and tell him that he either fires her, gets a home health person to come in daily or he has to move here to assisted living. My mom is so stressed over my Grandfather and his office help. Which is one of the reasons I knew my business would come in handy. It is here to give families peace of mind.

We went to playgroup today at the park and it was tons of fun. what a great park to go to. We had our own pavillion and we grilled out. It was perfect weather. Other than keeping the little ones from touching the hot grill it was an awesome time.

A NEW POST

Well I haven't blogged in a while, and I still don't know what to blog about. I am just kind of boring right now and nothing to great or to terrible is going on, which means things are good, right? I can live like this. No Drama, no trouble, just day to day living.

I am excited to see the leaves turning. I love Fall it gives me such good happy feelings, reminds me of being in marching band. Bus trips, football games, practice after school, oh such good times. I can't wait till Caleb gets to go and play with the HS band at a football game. That will be so exciting for me. I already told him I was going to train him now so he can be Drum Major when he is a Junior or Senior. Won't that be awesome?

Well I have 30 minutes of work left. It has been super slow tonight, which is nice for me. I get to surf and catch up on posting on the board, and read other blogs, which I am off to do now.

Now what?

I have started Justin in Kindergarten this year and now I am thinking I made a mistake! He is acting out, being aggressive and regressive! I know he is so little and he just turned 5 in July! I wish that he was in DK instead of K. He was next on the list to go! But they only accepted 15 students! It is not right to let the ones who need DK not go and fall through the cracks! So tomorrow I am going to tell his teacher we need to have a conference! I want to know her opinions and what I can do to make this an easier transition.

Today my insurance is effective!!! Now, I just have to get the state LC, and I am good to go! What a process, starting a business really is. I may have to carry workmans comp, but I am hoping I can see an attorney soon and have some waiver drawn up that I will not be liable for on the job injuries due to hiring sub-contracted labor. Please Lord let this be a success! And for those of you who read this, spread the word about United Home Care Services, LLC!

Thyroid, Thyroid, Thyroid

Sometimes it is so hard to tell what is depression, thyroid, anxiety, and other issues I may have. Like am I so fat because my thyroid is not leveled out right now? Or is it because I get depressed? Do I get depressed because of my thyroid levels, or is that because I am fat? Then what is ADD/ADHD and where does that fall into all these questions?

I am blogging because there are things I need to get off of my chest! If you are reading this please do not judge me! I believe that there is a connection between ADD/ADHD and addictions! I feel that for people who are ADHD they are more likely to choose depressants, like for me as an example! how many years did I stay high? Too many! Or how often do I drink or over eat, or over indulge any anything that is medicating me? And oh yes food, binge eating, is a great way to self medicate! It is socially acceptable to eat! And drinking is socially acceptable in most circles. Drugs well we know they are illegal! So what do I choose as a mom, FOOD! So lets get to the root of this. Why do I need to self medicate? Is it lonliness, possibly! Or is it that my brain never stops? Ah-ha which then leads me back to ADHD! All of the things I have listed, drugs, alchohol and food, help slow me down! Maybe this is what normal people feel like, minus the guilt/hangover in the morning!

I am not saying I have a problem with alcohol and currently I am not binging! I have however been there and had those problems! I am so frustrated with feeling the way I feel! I need answers and if it is one medication, such as thyroid medication that needs to be increased to make me feel better than by golly the Doc best prescibe it! But this strattera I am now taking for the ADHD is horrible I am not liking it at all! I will be so glad to call the Doctor tomorrow and discuss this with him! As for the other ADD meds, I cannot take them due to my history of drugs and alcohol and my addictive personality! I do not want to become addicted to Stimulates! I just want to feel better!

Some people may say exercise and I really am trying, I did exercise twice this past week! Which isn't great but at least I am starting! Loose the weight and exercise then you will feel better. Well thats all fine and good when you have a normal functioning thyroid!

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Stephanie, you are most afraid of moving forward

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Almost a week!

I have almost blogged everyday this week! I am surprised! So today, I started my new medication Strattera for my Adult ADHD! :0 Yes I have gone all my life with ADHD and never done anything about it! I always just found a way to deal with it. Well now that I have three kids and all these different schedules to keep up with! It is just to the point that I have become overwhelmed! So I decided to give the meds a try! If by any means my personality changes, I don't want to take them! Sometimes you hear of the meds making kids not even the same person! So I don't want that! Well today my head felt tingly, it was really wierd! I think I got nausea this morning cause I didn't eat for a long time! I don't know maybe it was the pill too! So I will see how I feel in a week! Before I try to make up my mind on it!